I'm 21 years young as of April 3rd, 2012 and Platinum Blonde(not naturally, but who cares?). I'm Cuban, Indian(Choctaw, Chickasaw, and Osage), German, French, Irish, and some other ethnicities, haha. The best way to describe myself would be...BubbleGoth. I'm girly and bubbly, but I'm also mysterious and I think deeply. I can be outspoken, but that's just my Aries side coming out, haha. I can be shy and timid, too. I used to be completely afraid of EVERYTHING. It was ridiculous, but I couldn't shake it until I got older. As cliche as it may sound, it was God who changed me. After I was officially saved, and I mean officially as by the way that I felt and the mood the room had when it happened, I just blossomed. I was still me, only better. I still have my moments, everybody does. But I will never forget how I felt that day. |
I love God, Barbie, Lady Gaga, Hello Kitty, Stars, + Bright Colors.
I really like Edgar Allan Poe, his poems and stories are just so...deep. I guess I've always sort of been into that type of thing; about murder and horror. It's just embedded in my DNA. My grandfather is a retired police officer and I've sort of grown up with the whole CSI and Criminal Psychology set of mind. I'm extremely observant of my surroundings and my mother thinks the same way. She says I would make a great detective, but I know that lifestyle would destroy me bc i just care too much about EVERYTHING. I would always be upset if I couldn't save someone or solve a case..ugh.
Anyhoo, I graduated from hs in 2010 and I was very reluctant about going to college bc I didn't really know what I wanted to major in or even study. I still don't. -.-
I went anyway, for almost 2 semesters. I was taking my basics, along with Psychology. While psych is interesting, some aspects I prefer not to learn. I'd much rather take Criminal Psych, but they had me start at the beginning; Intro to Psych.
Anyhoo, year ago exactly is when I decided to take a break and really figure out what it is that I want to do. Aside from Criminal Psych, I want to study the history of serial killers and other things of that nature, I don't really know what the title of that class would be other than, yet again, Criminal Psych. What really got me interested was that movie, "Stay Alive"(I know, cheesy). But it wasn't the movie that caught my attention, it was the story that the game in the movie was based upon and depicted; about this woman Elizabeth Bathory (known as The Blood Countess) who, in December of 1610, was accused of killing over 650 girls(although she was only convicted for 80. Some of which were the daughters of local peasants "lured" there by the "promises of well-paid work as maidservants", others were of lower-class nobile blood who had been sent to "learn proper courtly etiquette", even more others had apparently been kidnapped. Also, it's stated that most or all were virgins, wanted for their purity and innocence) and bathed in their blood to maintain her youth and beauty. Except, after the first ever written account of the witnesses was published in 1765, it was learned that there were no references to bloodbaths. Thus meaning it was more thought that she killed them for her own sadistic pleasure. But, how do we know that she actually did it? Yes, there is evidence, but most was based on hearsay. They never questioned her, nor did they ever have her stand on trial, which is said to be bc it would have caused a public scandal and disgraced the noble and influential family (which at the time ruled Transylvania), and Elizabeth's considerable property would have been seized by the crown. She was originally to have been spirited away to a nunnery but as the accusations grew, she was made to stay under strict house arrest, with further punishment to be avoided. It's also accounted that King Matthias, who had earlier wanted her immediately put to death, no longer had to repay his large debt to her; for which he "lacked the sufficient funds." Some have argued that she was a "victim of conspiracy", that the "proceedings were highly politically motivated, a theory that is consistent with Hungarian history of that time". There was also great conflict between religions at the time. There's also the little side note that she had intervened, at several times, on behalf of destitute women.
Which leads me to think, was she actually guilty of these crimes or was she framed so that the king wouldn't have to repay her of his debt?
Sorry to basically write a whole paper, but I want all of the information known so that there aren't any misunderstandings.
This is what interests me; not just the way that people are killed but, why. I want to know what makes someone itch to take someone else's life. Why they love to see the last moments, the little things. It's a bit like people hunting animals. It's a trophy, of sorts, to them when they kill someone. I want to just get inside their heads, find out what happened to them in the past that caused them to be that way bc serial killers aren't born, they're bred. In the "Silence of the Lambs", the way Clarice tried to figure Hannibal out, that's what I want to do.
Aside from all of that, I also want to study Religions of Other Cultures and the history of religion.
I was baptized Catholic at 12, of my own accord. No, I was not brainwashed. I simply love God and the way that Catholicism celebrates Mary for giving birth to Christ. Which is why I want to study the history of religions bc it's hard for me to understand why there are so many different names for similar, if not exactly, ways of worshipping and celebrating God. That's what I think, anyway.
Something else that doesn't necessarily interest me, but I am curious about, is the conspiracy theory and whether it's true or not. I just don't know..